When I started 2017 my phrase for the year was “Find Joy in the Mystery”. It was all about letting go of so much control, allowing life to flow and to be curious to whatever presents itself to me. Doing that as a practice has opened up SO MUCH to come to me because I decided to be receptive and let go of every gnat’s ass of planning and details. But when you ask for one thing you usually get something deeper if you are paying attention. Here is what has been coming to me as a result of a deep Intention Creativity™ journey that I am on.
When did I start taking myself so seriously?
I used to be funny, but then after some journeying I came to the conclusion that I stopped being funny for funny’s sake when someone somewhere told me I was weird. Which now I rock the weird, but back then I made an agreement that my funny would only show up as mean and sarcastic, because Goddess forgive I was weird or a nerd. And then when I got on a spiritual path of kindness and compassion and digging up my own stuff I decided that was serious business, and that my brand of sarcastic humor was not kind. But it’s there, it did not go away, I just stuffed it down so I looked like some authentic light being, who does not get pissed at what she sees in the world. But here is the truth and the truth is I would rather share my dissolution through humor than anger.
I love humor that pokes fun at the human condition we now find ourselves in, and to stop taking ourselves so seriously.
Humor, laughter, and fun are medicine. It does not have to be mean in spirit, but can call attention to where we all are struggling, and to some that might be offensive.
Spiritual work can bring up some really tough stuff. It can throw us into darkness, and sometimes the only way out is to laugh.
Laughter is light!
Sometimes I get panic attacks when I drive. Do you know what has helped tremendously?
Listening to Comedy Central. It grounds me, distracts me, and makes me laugh. Also when you laugh your blood pressure lowers and you are getting more oxygen. I love the vulgarity and the intelligence of the comedians. It gets me from point A to point B, and people see me laughing in my car and I get a reaction. Everyone thinks I am always happy. In that moment I am not, I am struggling with anxiety, but humor helps me through it. It helps me realize that we are all in a cosmic comedy, and to stop taking everything so seriously.
Yes we all have trauma, we all have seriously painful things that have happened in our lives, and working through them can be difficult. Why not do it with as much humor as possible?
I have done the painful excavating, I have sat in the darkness, I have burned my house down, and I probably will again. But in the meantime, I am living my life with creativity, humor, and playfulness. How about you?