I hope this Solstice finds you well, and that you have; in fact taken at least a short amount of time (or plan to this evening) to go internal, reflect on your year, release what is no longer serving you, or just honoring and ending as you make space for the new beginnings.
Some years I hold a circle to walk women through this turning of the wheel and introduce the significance of the Winter turn of the wheel, and other years I choose to go it alone, listen to the yearnings that tell me to quiet down, and be with ME. This was one of those years, particularly since I have been very "external" and visible in these last few months. The recharge was absolutely imperative. I hope you are also honoring what you need at this time.
Today, I was blessed to be in two different virtual circles (and one more tonight) with some amazing wisdom teachers. And the themes for me rang through loud and clear in both circles. Yesterday, I reflected on some things I wanted to release, but it really didn't come into my being today after being with these amazing women. I am so blessed to have the teachers in my life, some come in for a short time, some I have studied with a long time, and others I "knew" of long ago, but know that now is the time to go deeper with some of them. That is the thing about teachers, they can appear any time, sometimes you are not ready, but if they keep coming back, then that is often a clue you should be working with them. And that is not only true for the teachers themselves, but can also be true for the words of wisdom that are shared. Some things you may hear over and over again, even believe them, but maybe never truly embody them until you are ready to hear it or it is said in a certain way at a certain time by a certain person, and then you truly hear it, and then believing it becomes knowing it, in every fiber of your being.
That is what happened to me today. I heard some words that I have heard before, that I believe, that I even teach to others, and then I heard them again, and as I did I began to cry, because I knew in that moment I finally embodied those words into every cell, I felt it viscerally and in that moment it became a soul imprint. Here is what I heard today in different forms:
I live in fear of slowing down, that I don't have enough time on this Earth to complete my sacred assignment. That I will miss out on something if I slow down.
That I am releasing my warp speed, while embracing the fact that it is in my nature to move fast, and that is the paradox, because to slow down and be spacious actually means more will happen.
That I am not the only one who fears slowing down but that without a doubt when we do, and we do it in our natural rhythms coupled with the rhythms of nature that we are fully capable of manipulating time.
That when I heard these words, this time from a different voice, and from a place where I was already slowing down in that natural rhythm of the Earth's cycles, I was open and receptive....I was so relieved, I felt the relief in every cell, I was so relieved that I cried...because I finally gave myself permission to slow down.
So I ask you what are you releasing, and what are you giving yourself permission to do or not do?
In these next few days I will continue to vision, reflect, release and welcome in the new beginnings. I can say that I am also releasing the need to fill the calendar with classes, but rather to ask what is wanted and needed, not only for my beloveds but for myself. Offerings will be nourishing for me to create and deliver, as I hope they will be for all those that cross my threshold, either in-person and virtually. As we move into the New Year, I will be asking the questions of you, what do you want and need.
Love and Light,